I had an interesting revelation yesterday.
For sometime, I had considered creating a YouTube channel about drama in the Writer Community on the internet from Twitter to YouTube to any social media platform. I thought to myself "Drama Channels do really well on YouTube, and no one has done it for the writing community. Maybe I can fill that niche."
This issue with this was that drama, as far as I know, doesn't happen a lot in the community. When you compare us to other communities the beauty community, we seem really chill. So consistency would not be the name of the game with such a drama channel.
But I still wanted to try. "Maybe people will come to me with the drama so that I don't have to wait for it and be inconsistent" I thought.
So my opportunity came in the last week when the RWA suspended Courtney Milan from their organization when she called out Kathryn Lynn Davis for writing a book that was a "fucking racist mess". This was a super serious situation and a lot had happened in just a few days. I easily could've made 2 20-min videos about the whole situation and I would probably still be making videos for a few more weeks with the trajectory of the story.
So yesterday, I started trying to gather my receipts, which wasn't easy. I had to go all the way back to Aug 25th to find Milan's original statement about Davis' work and then I had to collect everything relevant from that day forward.
I don't know how long I spent on the project--I got as far as getting resignation statements from former board members. At which point, I became very in-tune with my body. And I scrawled into my notes "DRAMA VIDEOS ARE NOT FOR ME".
I have worked incredibly hard to find a peace of mind and serenity in my soul. I'm still working on it. I'm still trying so hard to stay that way. I'm working my ass off to not consume anything that would harm me on a mental, spiritual, and emotional level. This whole situation pissed me the hell off--as it should. Everyone should be pissed off with how rigged the system is and how it has been abused.
But as angry as I am and as angry as I should be, nothing about this whole thing is worth risking my mental, emotional, spiritual, and EVEN PHYSICAL health.
So, maybe one day the AuthorTube drama channel will come into being... but I won't be the one who makes it. The money and the success that COULD come from it is not worth my health.
The sooner we all realize this, the happier we will all be.